my 2nd nite tonight.
night makes me zombied!!!!!!!!! bah.
u knw i always wish that mamaa was beside me.
but recently the feelings kinda intense. its like i really really wan her to be near me.
its sucks how she was alway thre for me but yet i nv really felt it... or for that matter
made sure i felt if or somthing.
i mean its like her being here was a norm. she was always and forever be next to me.
to make it simple. i took her for granted.
it cld all be simple. all i need to do is cry for 7 days continouosly over the phone and ask her to come back. a couple of years back, i was so sure she wld come back. now?? i'm not that sure..

there r a million things constantly swimming on my mind.
ther r a million qsns i have..
sometimes i dunno why i shld feel responsible?
is it normal to be so hard on myself?

but i've learnt a lot since i started working.
i've learnt to give myself that much more allowance.
but as usual. juz when u tot u figured things out already and ready to embark on ur seemingly fool-proof plans, it doesnt seem quite like it.

thats what life is all about aint it?
u nv stop learning.
u nv stop playing.
u juz gotta know the rules and play the game of life!.. bah!

there are so many things i'm a-wishing.
i have decided to start working towards my goals.
for there are things i cant control. but those that i can. i shld.