just started work again not long ago.. how my hols seemed to fly.
at this exact moment, i'm wondering wat i blogged about the last time. and when was the last time i blogged..
oh wells:X wat can i say...
been having tons of fun w mummy. she cooks the best yet ever!!!!! am i gonna miss her..
the upsetting thing is that she wasnt here during my hols.
every am shift i spend time w her.. but my energies drained.
been feeling damn fucked up. and like the worlds biggest fool!..

wat do u do when u suddenly feel the person u gave urself wholeheartedly is just phoney..
wat do u do when u find out hte person u suppose to know almost all ur life turns up crappy..
its just another selfish predicament in a selfish world.
yet i cannot bear it no longer..
and u know wats the most painful of all.
i bet my life this particular person wouldnt even realise that i'm talking about this particular person and even more painful is that i never tot i would be so affected and writing this redundant entry about this particular person..

gosh.. am i ever a failure..
been feeling particuarly pissed off..
broke
sick
and feeling damn damn damn tired. wth.. i just came back from my leave. it aint right to be tired! aaaaaaaargh~!