happy deepavalli. but know something? i aint feeling the best of moods. things have happened over a short span...(it sucks that my uncle aint here to be with us). grr!

its annoying having to accomodate the whole world. sometimes i feel very imcompetent. and at others times i feel like the worlds biggest loser. i should learn to start being selfish and start thinking more about myself.

i dunno who to blame for having siblings who think the world of their own. their rudeness. thier attitude. i tot it was over when she burst on that fateful day. i kept it painfully buried in my heart... wondering how it could have been different... i tried to act like nothing happened. it was impossible...

i hate being me.. at least at this point of time.
perpectually screwed. its my fault. all mine. i should have just tot of what made me happy...and do what i wanted... why do i care just becoz i have to? afterall only if u r happy can u make others happy yea?..

i'm sorry. i just wish we could be happy. i wish i cld get a msg or a call from u. i dun even how to begin.