i am so farking pissed right now.
i am gonna whine like some self-pitying freak.
god bless my soul and forgive me for this childish outburst.
but i cannot take it. everytime he feels like yelling he yells.

yea. i din answer ur farkng call. so what. urgent.?? call the damn house phone la. u got shit in ur brains or wat??? i dump my hp in my bag. thinking it was at my grams place i didnt exactly bother searching for it in my bag.

if u wan to bloody jump to conclusion thinking that i purposely avoided ur call. so be it. its just as well i should juz avoid all ur call in future. coz u are an incorrigble beast.

barging into my room without knocking
calling me shameless and useless and yada watever shit aft u wash and iron my farking clothes.
u shld be shameless after doing it and self-praising urself thinking u r the greatest shit alive.

mayb i should go crazy and tell u not to iron or wash my clothes the first thing every morning when i see ur pathetic face. y shld i bear the brunt of ur insecurities after u do watever shit and throw it back to my face??

come to think of it,
i'm not that surprised. in fact. i know worse things are coming up. simply becoz u know it a couple of months, i will be finally financially stable and there's nothing for u to hold me back anymore. in what ever u do.

so if u think finally i feel like i'm a big damn farking shot now.. U R RIGHT. coz i have been bearing ur shit for 3 years. the times where u just feel like stripping me of all my emotional rights. i dun desrever to feel anything. i'm suppose to be ur little puppy dog with a leash tied securely around my neck...
well guess what... i'm no puppy dog of urs.
hell. even dogs bite when they have had enough.
i'm an ungrateful piece of shit?? i'll show u wat ungrateful piece of shit is. take a good look at the mirror.....

i'm so farked pissed. Dear God, please be kind to me. i really need this wkends to replenish my energy. please dun let him destroy it. i cannot take it.