the day has finally came. aminah has gone.. for good. i felt bad. coz this morning .. despite the knowing that its her last day, i didnt bother to day a proper goodbye. its didnt help tt she wasnt at my place when i woke up.
and when i wanted to go over to grams, they took a tad too long to open the door.. and i was running late so i juz left. amma and mamaa send her to the airport. as usual t-rex was xtra. but it doesnt really matter any more does it?
it make me wonder all the time she was pratically perfect. i dun exactly blame her.. its all trex fault .. for spoiling her or wadsoever.. i think i muz b pretty shallow to b jealous. but hell, u aint me.. u dunno hw i felt.!!!!!!!! its all over!.
i miss her. i feel bad not having a chace to tell her hw much i appreciate her and thank her for all she had done for us. i hope in her heart she knows. in the letter.. she thanked and apologised for the disharmony she had caused. the most touching part was she wrote lines to the lil spoilt brat.
take care and be a good boy and yada yada. she repeated this a whole pg long!... when i saw tt.. something tugged at my heart n i tears started to fall.
coz tt lil spoilt brat always loved making her write lines. to think this time with a twist.. she has done it for him ..willingly .
she didnt give me a msg.. but i heard her card had no money. she didnt give me a call either. mayb she tot i wld hv been busy. i dunno.. or mayb she juz didnt bother.. or mayb she tot i was still mad at her..
i am .. i cant believe she cheated and lied to me..
now life has to go on.. i'm gonna have some major adjusting to do. but i'll survive. i dun hv a choice. juz tt my time table will be more packed than it already is.. my dates gotta b lots lesser
'i'm sorry i hv to go hm early' is gonna be my line frm today onwards. i hv household chores to take care of .. benji to take care of.. daniel to take care of.. i hope all goes well.
on v day, me shan n ranjini hung out at starbucks aft lunch at swensen's. we were juz rotting and bascially bonding. ranjini and shan wwere both whining away.. and coming to a conclusion like hw dumb and bastardly boys are.. it was practically girls talk. but alas, shan went hm early..
i enjoyed it.. very much.. sometimes i feel me and ranjini hv tons in common.. sigh..
love u gal.. xoxoxox
i am planning to bring the daniel to NORBIT.. this sat i'll b at my grams place for dinner. really looking forward to it.. becca dear i miss u tons. wtf. i dunno since when i became so emotional. tying becca dear i miss u tons and my eyes are nearly wet. feeling kinda pathetic. tt day at the mrt. i was listening to my mp3. the song HOME by michael buble.. i suddenly cried. I REALLY CRIED... AFTERA LONG TIME.. and yet i tot i was immune to tt song already.. i got interrupted her.. i wanted to say i cant wait c becca.. n talk to her.. lookign forward to this sat.
moni moni.. i hope everything is well for u..hugs u take care love. need to attend to daniel'
